beginning's end
guess what?!
i'm back.
my 2-month absence is actually a mistake. my non-paticipation in my own blogger left me thinking to my own self. it felt like being so alone with my own thoughts, which was the reason anyway that led me to set-up my own blog in the first place. to find a venue for these thoughts. but during that time, i didn't want to write. there was no urge whatsoever. as if i lost myself entirely. as if i have nothing to talk about. i felt blank.
after much thinking, i felt that i lost myself for 2 months. 2 months alone. 2 months without direction.
i did a lot of things, but those were only parts of my whole, not the whole bringing up itself. i played basketball and played for my band. these were things that should have boosted my confidence, but i still felt insecure. and i knew the reason. i was not promoting the wholeness of myself. instead of concetrating on myself, i was concentrating on parts of myself. now i know. now it's time to recover.
the new year dawns. it will be a better year. it will be.
posted by < tofu kid> at 4:24 PM
