again
again.
i find myself in a situation where i have always been.
always giving.
give. give. and give.
there always comes a time when i thought i can never give more, but then as always, i find this urge in myself that i want to give. i want to be the same. i want to share my life.
i want to make a connection with you, even though we have our difference in faith.
and then, i find myself giving too much. i immediately find myself wishing that you give something back, which is something i can never really expect for you to do.
then i go into depression.
i haven't seen you in 3 weeks. and that will become 4 since you will only arrive from your home province by then.
just thinking that i've made the best connection ever to a person 2 months ago, but only to lose that again, is very, very sad.
i'm getting tired. yet i know i have to be patient. we have a semester or two to be friends. if it goes beyond that, that is the time to know. but one thing is for sure. i don't want to face depression again.
posted by < tofu kid> at 3:56 AM
